- Feb 19, 2020
- 2 min read
Updated: Sep 3, 2020
There's a dream theme going on here, team.
What is a recurring dream?
a dream that occurs over and over again, night after night
example: my boyfriend dreams about being in an exam that he never studied for and not knowing what to do during the exam
side note: I don't get exam dreams like this and I owe it to a) still being in school and b) having already done that irl (more on that story in a later blog post?)
The context:
I've only ever had one recurring dream in my life, and it happened to me when I was about 4 or 5, just about to enter junior kindergarten. Before this, I was in preschool. I think what happened was that I was scared about this Big Change and smol me didn't know what taking the bus would be like. I'd only ever been on those big travel busses and I was pretty scared to be alone in one of those big things.
The dream:
I'm sitting at the foot of the carpeted steps that led to my basement exit
At this time, my basement led to our parking, which is where I assumed the bus would go to pick me up. Don't forget that I was 4
I would be "waiting for the bus" and really scared, and my friend would comfort me and tell me that everything would be okay
HERE'S THE SPOOKY PART.
My friend: the 30ish-year-old man who had no skin and had a spiked, deformed head. In my dream, I saw that the man had no skin and I could see the exposed yellowish/brownish flesh underneath, with pools of blood oozing. It kind of looked like lasagna.
In the dream, I was not scared of this man at all, I was mostly scared of taking the bus. The bus would be a double-decker version of the Coach busses you would take to go on vacation. And that was really spooky to me because I would be all alone and have to take it by myself.
Only when I looked back on it later in my adolescence did I realize how spooky it was tbh. I later nicknamed him lasagna man.
Reflections:
The spiky head and the yellow make me wonder if my child brain tried to form a real human version of Homer Simpson mixed with Lisa Simpson's spiky hair, which is why he didn't seem scary at all
My mom let me watch The Simpsons for a brief while before she realized it was Definitely Not For Kids
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